GOD ANSWERS

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It's been a while, but I thought the one year anniversary of Journey, Faith and Love would be the best time to take a break. I am so grateful for you guys and for your continued support. My hope and prayer is that you are encouraged and fed by the words in this blog.

I started this blog because I actually want to make a difference. It's so funny because this blog also teaches me. I receive revelations when writing as well and I guess I just want everyone to either receive something or feel like they are heard and aren't alone.

I know I've had moments and times when I just wanted to feel like I wasn't the only one going through it, or the only one that had experienced certain things. Be it feelings, words, circumstances.

So today I'm going to talk about something that's really dear to me. If this isn't your first time reading my blog, you'll know that I'm a Christian. I love God guys, there's nothing that can change my mind. I just love God. But that's not what I'll be writing about today.

I just want to let you guys know that God answers. He answers when you call. He answers your questions. I can understand why some people might think He doesn't. I mean, we've all asked God for something. It could've been a superficial request or something vital to you, but we've all asked.

And sometimes, we don't get what we asked for. Cause guys, I've been asking God for a flat stomach for years now and I still haven't received it.

But just because I don't have the flat stomach doesn't mean God hasn't heard me. Neither does it mean He hasn't answered. Sometimes God says 'yes'. Sometimes He says 'no', and sometimes, God says 'not yet'.

As for me o, I'm holding on to the not yet on this flat stomach thing.

Okay let me be serious. God definitely hears and He definitely answers. It's just sometimes we may not like the answer He gives us. My parents didn't always give me what I wanted and sometimes what I thought I needed.

There's a purpose for our lives on earth and sometimes the things that we ask for just don't align with that purpose. So God will say no sometimes.

It's funny because I've actually experienced all three responses. God has said yes to me many times and I believe that is why I am where I am today and I'm very grateful for God. But God has also said no to me and I'm not gonna lie to you guys, I'm so happy He said no to somethings. With a little foresight, I'm able to see how the no, saved me.

He's also said 'not yet' to me on many occassions. I remember when I was in Law School, I really liked this guy and I used to pray that God would basically kill the 'like'. I just wanted to stop liking him because I thought it wasn't reciprocal. It was hard guys. Liking someone and having to experience that person relate with others in a way you'd like. Or not knowing whether the feelings were reciprocated.

So I prayed. I asked God to kill the feelings so I could get over him and basically move on. Y'all, God didn't answer me o. I was there still liking the guy and basically living in this abyss of unsure feelings. But at the right time and at the right place the feelings died.

They didn't die when I wanted them to, but they died in the most perfect way and at a perfect time. Till now, I'm grateful for the way they did and the result of that particular crush. I don't want to go into details, but the crush at that time had its purpose and I grew through it as well.

I learnt so much about myself and also grew in confidence through the process. I don't think I would've gained what I did, if it had died when I wanted it to. That's the thing about some of our requests to God. What we're asking for at the time may seem like the best solution to your issue, but may actually cause you to lose what you actually need.

There's a reason I'm so sure that God cares and that's because I've actually seen God step in. I've seen Him shield me, I've seen Him help me, I've experienced His comfort, I've experienced His no and I've experienced His not yet. And they always work out for my good.

I remember my very sad moments and I remember how God comforted me through them and then brought me out of them at the right time.

I don't despise or hate any of the answers God gave me. I may not always understand them. But there's one thing I'm so sure of in everything. And that is that God answers with the best outcome for you.

It really doesn't look like it sometimes (believe me I know). But I can assure you that if you would only trust Him. If you would just trust and have faith that God will come through for you, you'll realise that your life will be much fuller and greater than you could've ever made it.

We're on earth, so bad things are bound to happen, but with God and absolute faith in Him, no damage is permanent and every difficulty becomes an advantage,

The struggles I've experienced have become stepping stones to testimonies for me. I live a life full of thankfulness because I have so much to be thankful for. I also live a life full of peace because I'm assured that God is ordering my steps and is leading me.

I guess I just wanted to encourage you guys. Please don't give up on God. If you don't have it yet, you only need to ask God if it's no or a not yet. If it's 'no' be excited for the beauty that will come out of it all or even after. And if it is 'not yet', start giving thanks for what's about to drop.

As always guys, I love you, and most importantly, God loves you.

Love,

Esther xoxo